VALENTINE

Hai semuanya...

(^-^*)/ｺﾝﾁｬ!

( ﾟ▽ﾟ)/ｺﾝﾊﾞﾝﾊ


Akhirnya entah ada angin apa, aku memutuskan buat post sesuatu disini.
Siapapun yang baca judulnya, pasti awalnya akan berasumsi kalau post kali ini mungkin berkaitan dengan
a. Si pembuat post yang lagi sibuk jatuh cinta sama pacar barunya
b. Si pembuat post yang sibuk meratapi nasib sebagai korban forever alone
atau
c. Si pembuat post yang curcol setelah berusaha mati - matian kirimin kode ke gebetannya yang mungkin nggak sadar - sadar, nggak peka or whatever...
First and foremost, I have to tell you kalau sepertinya postingan-ku kali ini agak jauh dari masalah percintaan normal anak remaja jaman sekarang.. Intinya sih masih masalah percintaan tapi nggak semuanya menyangkut hal laknat itu...

Oke, daripada aku mulai ngoceh nggak jelas... We'd better proceed to the main topic.

Mungkin buat sebagian orang, Valentine itu identik dengan tukeran cokelat, tukeran pin bb, tukeran email, aim id biar bisa ichat, atau id id entah apa yang sekarang udah banyak bertebaran.Hari banyak yang jadian (menurut persepsi penulis yang agak sok tau) dan hari banyak yang ganti foto berkaitan dengan cinta - cintaan lah.

Jujur, sampai sekarang masih ada satu hal yang mengganjal dalam hatiku (hmm it sounds a bit pathetic)..
Kalau kalian mau menunjukkan cinta secara maksimal semaksimal - maksimalnya orang usaha, kenapa harus dihari valentine padahal dalam satu tahun kurang lebih masih ada 364 hari lagi lah? biar samaan sama temen kah? tapi kan itu mainstream dong... (personal opinion no hate)

sebenarnya menurutku nggak salah kalau kita menunjukan rasa cinta kita pada seseorang, tapi coba dipikir lagi, apa gunanya kalo rasa itu cuma tersalurkan sehari doang, padahal di 364 hari sisanya, hubungan kamu sama orang yang kamu sayang flat - flat aja...

(kok aku ngerasa grammar-ku makin lama makin agak menjurus mirip grammarnya si oka landak ya) 0__0

dan oiyaaahh, buat kalian yang sekarang lagi pada galau karena mungkin harus single pas valentine, kok kalian pada hopeless banget sih. Kan kita nggak ada yang bisa tahu kedepannya bakal gimana, kali aja pas valentine ternyata Tuhan sudah persiapin surprise buat kita, bisa dari orang yang selama ini kita idam - idamkan atau orang yang memang sayang sama kita. lagipula, kata sayang itu definisinya luas, orang yang sayang sama kita dan pastinya kita sayang dalam "hitungan" yang beda itu banyaaaaak...
it could be your family, friends, teachers, siapapun.... nggak musti si dia kan? :)

Jangan hopeless - hopeless banget lah, dengan nyebut2 "jomblo/single/jones/whatever deh".... opini pribadi nih, sebenarnya semakin kalian ungkit - ungkit kata "single/jomblo" itu semakin menegaskan kalo kalian itu emang mengenaskan, in short, kurang bersyukur...

Take a deep breath guys, bersyukurlah buat apapun yang kalian udah punya saat ini, karena diluar sana, pasti ada orang yang ingin menjadi seperti kalian. Bersyukur buat cinta kasih orang tua kalian yang pastinya tak terbatas sama kalian, bersyukur buat cinta saudara, kakak atau adik kalian yang bisa kalian dapat saat ini, bersyukur buat cinta dari teman - teman kalian yang selalu setia ada buat kalian dalam suka maupun duka, bersyukur buat anugerah kasih yang Tuhan kasih buat kalian sampai detik ini, karena kalau Tuhan sendiri nggak mengasihi kalian, kalau nggak sayang, cinta sama kalian, belum tentu loh kalian bisa baca tulisanku yang mungkin agak absurd ini....

Buat para manusia single diluar sana, percaya aja deh, kalau dalam waktu yang sudah dirancang Tuhan, status kalian pasti berubah, nggak mungkin lah selamanya single, kan setiap manusia diciptakan berpasang - pasangan. Fated, destined, meant to be. Orang yang tepat memang cuma belum ditakdirkan belum ketemu kita, tapi PASTI ketemu... lagipula, single doesn't always mean miserable lahh.. buktinya banyak orang pacaran yang malah pengen putus..

So, before I started babbling unpredictably, mungkin aku selesaikan aja postingan kali ini sebelum tambah absurd...
The last but not least people, HAPPY VALENTINE!!!!!

buat yang udah punya pacar maupun yang udah ditemukan Tuhan sama orang yang tepat, setia ya sama pacarnya... buat yang belum punya pacar dan yang masih dalam masa pencariannya, jangan pernah kehilangan harapan, tetap percaya sama rencana Tuhan, daaaannn selamat mencari pacar..

♥ヘ(^_^ヘ)(ノ^_^)ノ♥

God bless you


love
Steph

Lyrics of The Way You Smile by NewSong featuring Francesca Battistelli

I love the look on your face when you first see me
The way that you laugh at the silliest things
I love the way that you love so unselfishly
You bring out the best in everything
There's a million more, these are just a few
Of the many reasons I love you

But there's something about the way you smile
I can see forever in your eyes
Telling me I'm yours and you are mine
The way that you smile
We're like two lovers in sweet romance
You're my leading lady and I'm your man
You can say I love you in just one glance
The way you smile
The way you smile
The way you smile

The way you open the door you always see about me
Treat me like I'm a princess boy you're so sweet
Love the way that I feel when I'm in your arms
You whisper "You're beautiful" so safe and warm
There's a million more, these are just a few
Of the many reasons I love you

But there's something about the way you smile
I can see forever in your eyes
Telling me I'm yours and you're all mine
The way that you smile
We're like two lovers in sweet romance
I'm your leading lady and you're man
You can say I love you with just a glance
The way you smile
The way you smile
The way you smile

Today's the first day of me and you
Where ever you go I'll be there to
If God be for us, who can be against us
Who can be against us

But there's something about the way you smile
I can see forever in your eyes
Telling me I'm yours and you're all mine
The way that you smile
We're like two lovers in sweet romance
You're my leading lady and you're my man
You can say I love you with just a glance
The way you smile
The way you smile
The way you smile
Today's the first day of me and you
Where ever you go I'll be there to
The way you smile
Oh I love the way you smile
The way you smile

I somehow had felt this strong bond, uhm, feeling, I don't know how should I name this but I know this year will offer lots of better things for me, I know God's grace will be shown through me this year and yeah, I know, there will be a world called "us" :)

2013, The Threshold of Changes and Maturity

First and foremost, HAPPY NEW YEAR everyone!!! I hope we will get a wonderful year, full of endless blessings and kindness this year!!
Anyways, I simply made this post because I wanted to thank every single person who have made marks in my life throughout 2012, I'm thankful for those who decided to stay even those who have left.

I'm so thankful because of God's greatest grace in 2012, I met (met shouldn't be the righteous word so lemme rephrase it to "finally realized if he is alive") someone, I knew God sent him to change me, indirectly, perhaps, but he did, he does and he still is changing me.
He revealed most of my old secrets I've never known before, I had no idea how did he know everything, but He showed me the truth and that was all I needed the most. He changed my perception upon something I used to insanely hate.
You showed me the truest meaning of love, you made me understand the things I thought I wouldn't ever see..
I knew I was simply the girl with the pain, who tried my best to avoid unrequited love or even friendships because my past experiences were still kidnapping me, but I am absolutely adoring the way you took me out of my bleak darkness.. I know, God will never ever leave me.. And I believe, that's why you're here now :)

I knew now that I had nothing left to do but moving forward once I have given in, I know that can never be any way out but I will find a way with God. I had lost and throughout the years of always losing, I have learned that being a sore loser would simply make things a lot more harder. SO I SURRENDER TO GOD's HAND NOW!!! I wouldn't try to make things right by myself. Not anymore.

For once eversince, I felt tired of succumbing to losing, for once, I want to win, I want to win your heart, I want to do something, preferably to praise and worship God's holy name with you!

I have also learned that natures are actually connected with our thoughts somehow, so here is it is, I dedicate these Francesca Battistelli's songs for You, Lord and also you my dearest chopstick hero  :)

I used to daydream that I could be free
And far away from all the pain in this world
A little understanding
A hand to hold me
I was wrapped up in my doubt
But all that changed when you came around 
So long all that lonely living
That something that was missing isn't missing anymore
So long to the way that wasn't working
And the hurting that was all I knew
It's all gone so long as I have you 
Still have the hard times when nothing's going right
Just wanna pull the covers over my head
You gave me a new perspective
When the days get heavy and I feel rejected
There's someone to run to
Since the day that I found you 
So long to the mornings without meaning
The nights without sleeping
I'm right where I belong,
I know that I have YOU! 
(So Long)


Love's not a feeling, love's not convenient
But I know love can change your life
Love takes sacrifice, love cuts like a knife
Sometimes love will make you cry
Love's not easy but it's worth it
Love is a hunger, but love won't leave you empty
See it's a language of the heart
Love can steal your pride, but love won't let you ride
It takes everything you've got
Love's not easy but it's worth it
What you gonna do when the bottom falls out
And you're left with nothing
But your fear and your doubt to hold you, hold you?
Where you're gonna run when it's all on the line
And you're looking for someone
To save your life, to save your life?
Love can hear you, love can heal you
If you let it inside, oh, remember now
Love's not easy but it's worth it
What you gonna do when the bottom falls out
And you're left with nothing
But your fear and your doubt to hold you
Who's gonna hold you?
Where you're gonna run when it's all on the line
And you're looking for someone
To save your life, to save your life?
Love can hear you, I know love will heal you
If you let it inside, oh, remember now
Love's not easy but it's worth it
(Worth It)


My mood of writing had recently gone, so buhbye peopleeee, I'll continue this post, or even whichever, soon... :)

PERAHU KERTAS 2 - Premiere :)

Once in a lifetime experience, The Premiere of Perahu Kertas 2, the 2nd Indonesian movie I've ever really liked after its first one


Haaaiii, oke first and foremost aku mau minta maaf karena di post sebelumnya aku habis marah - marah..
Hmm, nggak marah - marah juga sih tapi lebih cocok disebut mengeluarkan "penat terpendam" dihati..
Sebenarnya, penat itu nggak mungkin keluar kalau nggak terpancing.
Dimana - mana bom nggak akan meledak kan kalau nggak tersulut api? Thoroughly and even logically reasonable...

Tapiii, itu nggak ditujukan buat semua readersku tercinta haha... okay nevermind... (ini sebenarnya aku juga lagi menanyakan diri sendiri kenapa aku bisa mendadak berubah gini moodnya) Sebenarnya jawabannya simple...
Tadi waktu aku ngetik "uneg-uneg" itu, itunes kubiarin nowplaying lagu - lagu super galau....
And then I decided to change the playlist into Perahu Kertas songs...

Jadiiiii, emosiku pulih lagi deh..

As the tittle told you, yeah, the main point of this post was, aku cuma mau share pengalaman yang happened once in a lifetime, walau ini bukan pertama kalinya aku pergi ke event seperti ini.
Tapi honestly, buat premiere film Indonesia, apalagi Romance, teenlit, yahh yang genrenya sebangsa perahu kertas, ini pertama kalinya aku fangirling, jadi error begini...

Semuanyaa itu bermula setelahh aku selesai nonton Perahu Kertas pertama yang keempat kalinya bareng guru Kimiaku, dan two of my classmates. Sebelum nonton, kita sempat photobox dulu pun. Duhh... Okay please ignore this. I looked so awkward there...

 

Aku mulai mikir, kayaknya seru kali yah kalau bisa nonton PK2 lebih cepat dari orang - orang lain, maksudku premierenya. And in all of the sudden, lagi - lagi, aku entah kenapa mendadak merasa perlu sms Zata. And ternyata beruntungnya kita karena sesama agen neptunus dan punya radar yang kuat jadi jago telepati (?), Zata juga lagi mikirin hal yang sama kayak aku.

Aku mulai coba cari - cari relasi yang aku kenal, bahkan parents relation (lebih trusted haha). Begitupun Zata, langsung cari relasi. Haha. Lucky us, we do have some luckiness and also privileges through parents relatives and the relationships they had with people.

Kita berdua langsung kayak orang error walau dari dulu memang yah begini adanya. Kita percaya, sangat percaya, bisa dibilang terlalu percaya kalau NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE. Walaupun awalanya, seringnya, dalam jeda waktu selagi kita percaya, banyak yang bilang kita aneh, freak, fangirl pathetic, tapi kita kayaknya udah ketularan Kugy yang stays in her path no matter what people say...

Menjelang awal Oktober, September akhir, Zata and I started to lose our grip a bit, udah mulai sedikit hopeless2 sedikit. She started to worry but I still remember, I was watching a tv show in AXN at the middle of the night, I said "Zat, nothing is coincidence, kalau semuanya bisa terjadi, pasti Tuhan punya alasan, apapun alasan itu bisa berdampak kedepannya, Nothing is impossible, bisa aja alasan itu berkaitan sama mimpi - mimpi kita" <- waktu itu aku lagi korslet level dewa jadinya yah begini dehh...

And suddenlyyyyy, in September 26th, the invitations are both arrived in our hands!!!!! YEAAAAHHH!!!!! (oke ini lebay)... And yang tadinya aku super duper badmood karena Fisika jadi mendadak kegirangan.

Di hari H, sekitar jam sembilan pagi, aku sms Zata soalnya whatsapp lagi error entah mengapa menghalangi signal radar kita(?).. I was asking her how would she get there and accidentally, she replied it with "yah fanny kayaknya aku nggak bisa ikut, aku lagi sakit"... I was shocked, like really shocked. I didn't even care if I was still in class, studying Chemistry, I was nearly crying. Yah masa sih, planning yang udah kita buat bareng - bareng, percaya bareng - bareng, tiba - tiba harus dicancel. Karena sesungguhnya(?), (this is fact) PK itu benar-benar film Indo pertama yang kita suka. Sebelumnya, kita prefer Japanese/Hollywood(of course). Malah honestly, we've once underestimated the abilities of Indonesian movie producers...

Ditengah kegalauan yang sedang melanda, tiba - tiba Zata sms aku "Fan, daripada undangannya nggak kepake, coba kamu cari teman buat nemenin kamu. Undangan punyaku buat dia aja" (she was so angelic for saying so and I was desperate for reading this)

Karena memang nothing is coincidence, tiba - tiba one of my friend, yang ikut nonton PK1 bareng aku saat aku nonton buat keempat kalinya, named Yohana, duduk disampingku waktu jam istirahat. And she started "galau-ing" because one of her friend luckily won a quiz and he won an invitation for the premiere.

Akhirnya aku terpikir supaya, daripada sia-sia, aku ajak Yohana aja, deh.. And her mood changed in an instant. Bener deh, yang tadinya murung langsung girang.. Sampai dia (me too, actually) kita nggak konsen sedetik pun waktu les...

Karena Zata tetap nggakbisa ikut (efek sakit karena sebelumnya dia sibuk shooting diBandung), and karena aku tetap mau Zata merasakan "being allowed to be in the premiere with me, us", jadinya I've planned and prepared a surprise for her, supaya cepat sembuh....

Sekitar jam setengah 7, Yohana and I arrived at the "destination"...

Kita langsung dapet tiket, the movie planned to start around 7:30pm so we still had some time...

Karena masih ada waktu sisa, aku langsung menjalankan misi "surprise for Zata"... alias, cari tanda tangan tante Dee..

Akhirnya kita ketemu tante Dee, minta tanda tangan juga.... and foto bareng (harus)....

please pardon the horrible quality yaahhh.. duhh ._.

Setelah foto, my first obsession had just gotten bigger once I saw Keenan's painting yang super kerenn.. I'm obsessed with that...

duh aku aneh amat ._.

Sebelum foto didepan Keenan's painting, kita ketemu kak eko dan tanpa basa basi, Yohana langsung usulin minta foto. Karena kita bingung siapa yang mau foto duluan, tiba - tiba kak fauzan ngomong "gimana kalau kalian yang foto berdua sini saya fotoin" and aku langsung speechless...

i looked so weird duh ._. !! ANYWAYS I WISH I WAS AS TALL AS YOHANA

Sambil kita berjalan - jalan menunggu pintu studio dibuka, tiba - tiba kak Kugy jalan didepan kita. Tanpa basa - basi lagi, langsung aku yang heboh minta foto. Because she is sooooo pretty and inspiring, both kugy and ka maudy herself.

Setelah we took a pic with kugy, Yohana seemed to start to worry because she hasn't seen Adipati Dolken, I meant Keenan, yet.. Entah kenapa, tiba - tiba aku komentar "mungkin dia lagi dipanggil laporan ke neptunus yohh" tapi kalau dipikir, iya sih, casts lain gampang ditemukan, aku ketemu Remy, Luhde, Wanda etc tapi dia doang nggak keliatan ~

And suddenly, ketika aku sibuk mencari cari mana si gondrong keenan, tiba - tiba Yohana narik sikutku dari arah berlawanan and she whispered "ituu keenan". Aku balik belakang as I was trying to find where was he. "Mana?" aku sempat nanya gitu karena masih belum "ngeh" kalau keenan potong rambut.
Setelah entah kenapa tiba - tiba aku sadar, and I accidentally asked (untung pelan yah suaranya waktu itu)... "Kok beda sih" .____.

Kita langsung minta foto barengg.... And what annoys me the most was, astaga, keenan itu tinggi banget, in my opinion, dia itu tiang listrik, benar-benar tinggi... Entah tingginya dia berapa, tapi approximately lebih dari 180cm karena aku yg 165cm ini nggak sampai sedagunya.... As it seen on the pic: (yaah, itu aku keliatan agak tinggi soalnya udah ganti wedges yg 10cm ._.)

Memang nothing's really coincidence, pas setelah kita foto sama keenan, pintu studio akhirnya dibuka....
We entered the studio began to watch the movie...


Pada menit ke 40an, tiba - tiba aku mulai menitikkan air mata, saat adegan keenan kugy dirumah Karel. Duh, itu paling "jleb".. Waktu Remy mutusin Kugy juga bikin nangis sih.....

Setelah nonton, kita papasan sama kak Luhde dan lagi - lagi mau minta foto...
Berhubung I looked so weird karena habis nangis - nangis, jadi I'll just post Yohana's pic with her....

Sayangnyaaaaa, sehari setelah premiere itu hari selasa dan aku seharusnya susulan ulangan Fisika. Jadi setelah nonton, Yohana and I decided to go home.... hiks..
Padahal bahkan setelah aku sampai rumah and tiduran ditempat tidur, masih banyak yang tweeting kalau mereka masih di Epicentrum... Duh Fisika.... ._.

Mungkin, that's all sih yg bisa kutulis.. (udah mulai badmood & malas nulis) haha...
Hmm, by the wayyy, duh, cincin yang Keenan Kugy pakai setelah mereka udah married itu lovable banget, parah, sekali... Andd aku ngidam itu sekaranggg!!! hahaha :P

Kayaknya keren yaah kalau bisa dipakai bareng sama pacar... (padahal forever alone, sok sok ngomongin pacar....)

Guys, berhubung sekarang udah lewat jam 10 dan besok aku harus sekolah, berhubung lagi sayangnya besok pelajaran pertama itu fisika hmm...
Kayaknya I'd better end this post.. Mungkin next time aku bisa posting lagi, preferably babbling lagi tentang PK....

Sooooo goodnight, goodbye...

ehh, last but not least, no hate / offenses first, I just want to say, for me, I adore the old Keenan more than the new one. I'm wondering what makes his fans are liking him more intensely since he got a new hairstyle...... Maybe that's because I found myself tricked when I tried to find him in the middle of the crowd...

uhkat nevermind...
daripada aku mulai meracau,, sooooo



zaijiaaaan :D

PERAHU KERTAS

WEEELLL, I still remember I've once said that I'll post something about my current obsession which is actually just a movie called Perahu Kertas... This is actually a movie based on a novel with the exact same title. Lucky you, I finally had a chance to post it, now, through my brother's laptop haha ^^
And thisssss simple thing had precisely made me flipped, head over heels, obsessed, drowned in super indescribable mundane obsession. That one which I obviously can't even describe with words.
Aku sendiri juga nggak tahu, nggak ngerti, jujur bingung, apa yang bisa buat aku terhipnotis, benar-benar terhipnotis sampai gila, terobsesi level entah berapa dengan Perahu Kertas.

Awalnya, aku cuma lagi online twitter dari laptop and suddenly, aku lihat ditimeline, ada beberapa orang difollowingsku yang mulai ungkit Perahu Kertas.. I still remember it was August 14th. Aku pernah baca sinopsis novelnya sih, and awalnya memang aku tertarik, penasaran sama kugy just because I think she's unique and she is also an aquarian just like me.

Well then I did a research in the internet about PK.. I watched the trailer afterwards.
And in an instant, I'm mesmerized. GILA, langsung GILA....
Well, gimana nggak, dalam film itu, ditrailernya ada scene yang backgroundnya braga and ubud. Secara, aku sendiri pun ngga tahu kenapa aku bisa suka bangeeettt sama bali apalagi Ubud sama Tana Lot terlebih Bandung dan Braga nya yang selalu mengingatkan aku sama Rocketown, mungkin terkesan awkward, tapi scene di braga yang sebenarnya cuma adegan dorong mendorong mobil mogok bisa buat aku overwhelmed, bukan karena adegan, tapi dari braga itu sendiri sudah jadi penghipnotis buatku.
Aku ngga bisa benar-benar bilang kenapa aku bisa cinta banget sama bandung and braga, mungkin yahh karena childhood's story, mungkin karena dulu aku sama opa oma sering banget ke bandung and we visited braga more than one time, went shopping together yah meskipun itu terjadi waktu aku masih kecil, kecil banget.. yahh, cuma itu nggak penting, itu semua masa laluuuu *kugy's style*

back to PK, setelah nonton trailernya, aku browse soundtracknya, dan lagi lagi aku dibuat gila oleh soundtracknya karena ada bagian lirik yang mengatakan ini :

"Ku bahagia kau telah terlahir di dunia dan kau ada di antara milyaran manusia"

Kebetulan, aku pernah baca novelnya tapi nggak selesai satu buku dibaca karena, well, bilang saja hilang lahh yaa...I was so young though' and nggak terlalu perduli dengan love stories.

I was repeating the trailer over and over again sampai akhirnya setelah yang ketiga kali, aku bukan lagi gila karena braga-nya, tapi karena perkataan sosok keenan yang sangat "jleb".....

"Nyerah sama realistis itu beda tipis"
semenjak itu, aku jadi pengen banget nonton filmnya. Seminggu berlalu, teman-temanku juga banyak yang aku ajak nonton tapi nggak semuanya berminat hingga akhirnya, mungkin karena I uberly believe nothing is impossible and nothing is coincidence either, aku serasa kayak harus sms Zata and ajak dia nonton.

THANK GOD, karena memang nothing is impossible and Tuhan selalu atur semuanya jadi yang terbaik, Zata kebetulan ada diJakarta, soooo in totatl sudden, aku sms jam 10 malam, besoknya jam 11siang kita langsung berangkat ke bioskop dengan semua curiousity....

Hasilnya, setelah menonton, obsesiku bukannya terobati ternyata malah tambah parah, bahkan sampai hari ini tambah parah... haha

I've read the novel 4 times also, actually... Boleh dibilang gila, atau obsessed atau whatever..
Tapi, I reallyyy wish I were Kugy.
I meant, yaaahh, dia itu dianggap freak oleh masyarakat, tapi dia stay on her path, dia tetap percaya sama kemauannya, follows her dreams dalam kondisi apapun, she found her true love by the strangest method I've ever known, yap, radar neptunus. AND even, her true love, accepts her for who she really is, her personality, her body, her height (the novel says keenan called kugy with "tiny") even her dreams, her imagination, everythinggg....
It's extremely rare for us to find man like keenan in real life, right???

sooo that's whyyyy I'm obsessed with this thing haha...
It taught me no matter where in this world or even universe do we go or wanted to go or have been, we will always find our true love someway, somehow, SOMEDAY, eventhough if that day may come in the most peculiar ways we have never imagined.. So yeah, just don't stop believing :)

 eveennnn my brother painted me this thing... Well, I forced him a bit though :P

Maybe I should put my radars on, it might be able to help me to find my own keenan :)